How Things Have Changed and then, Will Things Change?

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(This might be my last post but it is a personal post. So read at your own peril. 🙂 )

It actually all feels quite surreal, what is happening today.

Let me start by reminiscing about the time when I was still young and had not a care in this world.

I remember that when I was young, I was “botak”, meaning that I had a shaven head.

I was botak all the way until I was 14.

Once, after the Primary School Leaving Examination (PSLE) and when I was playing card games with some classmates, a friend remarked that I was actually quite good looking, so you can imagine my happiness.

I was beaming.

I mean, with that hair, or rather lack of hair, I can actually be thought of as good looking?

By the time I was in Secondary 2, I think it was about then that I realised that maybe you need to have some hair to at least have some semblance of attractiveness.

And so I started to try my darnedest to grow the hair out.

But it was not easy. How do you go from straight Chinese afro to F4’s Vic Zhou in a few months.

It did not just take a few months. It took another 7 or 8 years.

It was when I was in university when some friends started remarking that I looked like Vic Zhou.

OK, you can laugh. But at one point, with my dyed bronze floppy hair and my melancholic demeanor, I did resemble him OK. It was as if I was part of a Taiwanese drama serial as I walked through the corridors of the university.

And so, one day, a friend decided to enter me into the reality TV show School Beau and Belle organised by Mediacorp.

I actually thought I stood a chance, until they decided that a nerd couldn’t possibly win a competition where they were looking for hunks.

So they walked away with Elvin Ng.

A much better choice anyway. I guess I would rather swoon over Elvin Ng than Roy Ngerng.

I mean, would you go with someone with glistening pearly white teeth in the TV commercials or someone with teeth that looked straight enough but was blaring at the top of his voice about the government?

But hey, Roy Ngerng has balls, OK. Doesn’t quite know how to use them but he has them.

Anyway, the point of this story is that when I was young(er), all you would have thought about at that age was whether you had enough money to buy hair gel.

You see, I needed lots of hair gel to keep my hair down, and lots and lots of it.

When you had thick coarse hair growing upwards for the past 14 years of your life, by the time you need to push it back down, it has already learnt how to defy gravity and stick its hair up in the air.

Maybe that’s where I got my stubborn strength from. My hair led the way.

So imagine I would start going to school like the classic nerd, as I plastered layers and layers of gel on my hair just to keep it down.

But the hair would not sit still!

So loose strands would keep popping out everywhere. It would take years before my hair would grow to become the messed-up mob look you see today.

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When I was younger, every bit of money was so important. That was all I had. I would have liked to buy the more expensive and nicer-smelling hair gels but I did not have that much money.

I could not even afford to eat at McDonald’s often. When I did join my friends at McDonald’s, it was to get an ice-cream and watch them eat while I had a cheaper meal in school before I met them. Then, the quality of the ice-cream was actually quite good and it was a lot cheaper.

And as you were growing up, you just hope to yourself that one day you will find a job that you will love, that will still allow you to love life, and that will give you enough money to buy hair gel.

By the time I had enough money to buy hair gel, hair gel had already gone out of fashion. Hair wax was in the rave.

Of course, it helped that when you could just pretend to look like Vic Zhou, then all you need is to grow your hair long and leave it like that. No gel or wax needed.

Until of course, it became a mess of dried hay, and then that’s when you decide to leave it black and go back to the nerd look.

By the time I started work at the Health Promotion Board (HPB) – I am so glad that they left my hair alone. If Lee Kuan Yew was still deciding on policies, my hair would have been chopped off and replaced with a half-watermelon cut out.

So, anyway, by the time I was at the HPB, I was finally earning my first proper income.

It was in 2006. I was a fresh graduate and the HPB only paid me $2,200. It was 2 years later when I realised that I was underpaid when someone swaggered in and told me that he earns more than $2,700. Thankfully I left with recognisably more.

But doesn’t matter. I was in it for my passion anyway.

I was working in HIV education and as someone who had my fair share of, shall I say, youthfulness, I knew how many times I had put myself in situations which would have warranted a person sit next to me to educate me about HIV each time.

It was only a few months into my job that I was finally fully convinced on the need for condom use to protect yourself all the time and went on raising that awareness to the public for the next eight years.

It was not easy. I had low self-esteem, I did not believe in myself. And so I kept putting myself in position of risks. I felt powerless against people who were older than me and I had trusted them to know better.

But it was not until I was in my mid-20s and got to an age where I should “know better” and realised that I didn’t, did I realise that maybe I should really know better and start taking care of myself.

It took some time but I finally got to where I am today.

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Which is why it is surreal.

You grow up naive, and thinking that life is buying that hair gel, swooning over your crush or several crushes, or tens and tens of crushes, and chasing after bands.

Or going to the front of the class and pretending to host the Star Search competition until the teacher walked in and asked you to go back to your seat – who were you to pretend to be a Chinese host when your Chinese needs remedial classes?

But then you start to grow up.

By the time I was in junior college, I was thinking about society, and discussing such issues with a close friend.

But how our paths have diverged. She has found fame doing what she loves. And I have found fame or (in)fame, or (de)fame doing what I love as well.

The passion has not changed. I still think about society, about what I can do to improve things and how we can all live better lives.

Lofty ideals, but when you are a dreamer, life is always a dream.

At one point, when I was in HPB, my supervisor had once told me, “You are not in touch with reality.”

True, but it was also because of my detachment from what is perceived as reality that also allowed me to spearhead many new projects that took HIV programmes to greater heights.

A comedy show with the Dream Academy to talk about sex. Checked.

A fashion show with the Textile and Fashion Federation to get designers, artists and even politicians to design T-shirts to support the HIV cause. Checked.

An art installation to put toilet bowl-inspired artwork in the shopping malls. Checked.

Some challenges here and there, but when you believe in something enough and try to make it happen, you can make it. And you will succeed.

I did not know then that it was my belief that was making me pull through things, but looking back, I realise what it is.

Perhaps that was the eagerness that I had when I started my blog.

I got to a stage where I thought to myself, I didn’t see enough analysis of society from a varied perspective. Much of what was said and discussed in the media was, shall we say, singly-focused.

I decided to write about my own perspectives of the Singaporean society on the newly-created blog then, The Heart Truths. That was in June 2012. It has been 2 1/2 years since.

And the rest, they say, is history.

I started as I always have, naive and without a “sense of reality”, until I realised that things are no longer masak masak (play play).

In HPB, when there were office politics, I didn’t partake it them. In fact, I couldn’t stand it. I spent the first 2 years at work really unhappy – why do people have to play politics to get ahead? Why can’t we just get on with what we do, work together, and help the people whom we were supposed to help?

Wasn’t that easier than playing politics?

It was only in the third year that I began to learnt to ignore the politics and let it be played, but be aware of it and just let it be.

Little did I know that politics was going to catch up with me.

By the time I started advocating for a change of government, the government was already eyeing me.

By the time I started organising protests and forums, it was time to put me on the watch list.

And when I started writing essays about how the government was taking the money of Singaporeans to earn for themselves, I was placed on the take-out list.

And soon, a new-found fame followed me, or rather a new-found infamous one.

But how things have changed. From a boy living in my own village-like world in our 2-room rented flat, I was thrown into the open wilderness and was left to fend for myself like a sheep in a wolf pack.

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I do miss those days. I miss the days when I was still carefree, where I had hoped that things would get better and they would, at least in my mind. I had learnt to find happiness within.

Today, I am in a different position. And soon, when the bankruptcy comes, I will be back to buying cheap gel.

When you were growing up and you look at your surroundings, you were grateful to live in Singapore. The high-rise buildings, the clean facade, the safety, the cleanliness and you think to yourself – Singapore is a clean and safe place to grow up in. What else could be better?

And when you grow up you, you thought to yourself that you want to do what you can to make your country a better place. And you start to hope that one day, you can contribute to make things better.

And then you did. I was creating programmes at the HPB that I was proud of.

But soon, you start wanting to do more. It started when you to start to realise that surely, people do not have to suffer just because they cannot afford to see a doctor? Surely, people should not have to work till their old age just because they couldn’t earn enough to save?

And then you start believing that for justice, surely things can get better?

But little did you know that whatever you had wished for was not quite what the government had in mind.

And when it was not, you become a threat.

From the innocence of wanting to make things better to becoming a threat simply because you wanted to make things better.

Never had I thought when I was young that the very government that was supposed to protect you would actually go against you.

It is all quite surreal.

All you ever wanted was to make things better, make life better. Maybe you were a bit too eager.

And then, before you know it, things come your way which you least expected.

But deep down inside, I am still the same boy, earnest, naive, eager and idealistic.

But there has been much that I have learnt. A bit street-wiser now.

Still, this has been a really expensive lesson.

But at least I can take heart to know that when I leave this world, I would be able to take with me some very interesting life lessons. But while the experiences are still ongoing, as they are, it can be quite a challenge.

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This is just a reflective piece, a bit indulgent. But as I sit at home nowadays, this is a thought that crosses my mind often – all I ever wanted was to be happy and to make life better. What would you know, that when you seek a better life for all, there are those who rather you not?

And even among those you seek to help, even they among themselves are used to feeling so enslaved that they are not ready to see the possibilities of a better life as well.

And where those in politics also believe that you cannot rock the boat for how would a career politician have the tenacity to fix things if things were to change too fast?

But I am not a politician. I am a dreamer.

And my wish is for a better place that we can live in, as soon as it gets, simply because treating people right is the right thing to do, and we shouldn’t have to waste time to get there.

The past few weeks have been challenging. And I am still learning to live with things.

I still hope that we are ready for change and change will happen but when the sense of reality kicks in, you realise that as much as you can see possibilities, they can only happen when those around you can see them as well and work with you to see to it that the possibilities do happen.

But while they don’t, you have to take a step back and think about what else you need to do to see to it that possibilities happen, at least for yourself.

I looked at two boys talked at the MRT station yesterday. I was like them when I was younger – carefree, without a concern in the world and dreamy. Maybe I had people call me names but things got better when people got to know me more. I am used to being misunderstood anyway.

But I miss those days, those days where you would sit at the playground with your friends and think about what you would do when your ‘O’ levels are over and what jobs you will go into.

But to one day be at the crossroads on the national stage? That never crossed my mind.

And then you just have to take each day as it comes.

Anyway today is World AIDS Day. It is a also day where we commemorate those whom have passed away from AIDS-related Illnesses. But it is also a day of hope. A person living with HIV can today live a long life, as long as a person goes on regular medication.

I know of many dynamic individuals who are people living with HIV themselves and they have inspired me and continued to contribute to our society.

Hopefully we will learn to walk with them as they walk with us, and one day embrace them and give them the support they need, so that they can continue to take good care of their health and continue to inspire others like you and I along the way.

Meanwhile, always be strong and believe in yourself, be it if you decide to stay in a committed relationship or if you decide otherwise, to always use condoms, so that you will protect your partner as well.

I learnt the hard way in life, made several mistakes and upset many people, to finally learnt some important lessons but I suppose that as long as we eventually learn and do what is right for ourselves, that is all that really matters.

Signing off,

Roy Ngerng

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I live on dreams, but my dreams maketh me.

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80 comments

      • microsoft furbee

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if the kids got 1m will they go the boat? maybe they take the small fishing boat badweather may sink also. your judge dont hang or next time your kids drive boat sink we hang them also 0jail bail 2mth cannot drive boat pay family 100000sgd eu usd your gov not happy put their navy people into the company. but your navy also sink 200people 0case 0search what happen is your president and general ask them go there? thai prince we sack you and nacc and print money ourself your dbs got $900b thai army eat $900b rice citibank pay general army ariport port $900b share stock exchange never check. we can change swiss judge swiss court room citi harvest police worker party judge dbs judge british bank can change bank management belongs to other department. church temple mosque office school insurance bank department priest nsa secret service board director ceo can sign usa congress india congress. dont beat protestor walk them 200m let go. you can plastic handcuff is a funfair can stay there 4years so long they dont burn the shops. ask them be gov go into the bank topup cash card bank card voucher give out public 50000usd eu sgd monthly type kate middleton facebook obama facebook you belong to british gov usa gov. microsoft gov. kate queen.

      • X

        Scum. I was there. Where were you? Or the seven MPs? Even Intan stands with you, that’s when you know you are wrong

    • 对PAP的看法

      CPF is people’s own hard earn money, demanding for own money refund is not evil, is the legitimate rights of citizens.

      if someone would like to join the CPF scheme
      it may go by voluntary-based, rather than forcing.

      We fully support Roy, Hui Hui & other Singaporeans ‘s protesting in Singapore, . till get back our CPF

      we did not owe you government, and you government don’t have position to owe us, you did not help us before, you will not help us tomorrow, we paid our own life and death. ( medicine and rice )
      Salute to the great people of Singapore

      • LOLYOULOST

        Any poor person in Singapore is a burden to society and what the CPF scheme does it to make sure you do not become a burden. The government has to take care of the poor and the poor pays less CPF, so it is not accurate to say that you do not owe the government anything. From young, your education has been subsidized, your transport and medical fees. If you are not contributing enough to society in terms of taxes, by right you owe a duty to the government because you have been getting benefits from them.

      • X

        Any idiot that demonizes the poor should be removed from society . Even goh keng swee protested in parliament to the extension of CPF from 50 to 55, to much applause from the old guard. Half wits should not comment on politics .

      • LOLYOULOSTMAKER

        Why people suffer from pancreatic cancer, cirrhosis, hemochromatosis and other diseases, Chronically undernourished, causing fatty liver disease. Liver, pancreas, heart, kidney, spleen, skin, etc., causing cell damage, fibrosis and organ dysfunction, people died in early age ? because after every month 36% subsidized PAP . how much left ?

        even borrow above 55 yeas old’s money for ” subsidized ” ? subsidized who ?, still PAP .
        thus, PAP is Singaporeans burden. PAP’s PM is our society’s burden.

        burden ? subsidized ? poor people ?
        who got more money or benefit from our society ? who is the ” burden ” ? . Apparently , is not poor people, is not the transportation user , is not the school students , is not above 55 years old people, is PAP.

  1. repost

    “With the protests now into their third month and frustrations mounting, Chief Executive Leung Chun-ying hinted that further police action may be imminent, in his most forceful comments in recent weeks.

    “I have pointed out before that Occupy Central is not only illegal but it will also be in vain,” Leung said, describing the continued protests as “intolerable”. “Now the (public) demand for police clearance is increasing. From now on, police will enforce the law without hesitation,” he told reporters.”

    China….well done. …the Sin way to curb and arrest dissenters is the most effective.

    Use the laws to stumble and there lies the use of legitimate violence on citizens.

  2. OJsimple

    Wishing you all the best… I wish I had courage… alas… not enough clarity… it must be tiring… hang out with friends… depart from this weird web for a bit… regroup… and you cannot help… but grow… best wishes

  3. Trans Europa Express

    I had dinner with my average Singaporean friend. “What do you think of that guy sued by LSL”, I asked. My average Singaporean friend replied, “What a cockhead. Roy Ng, a cockhead”. I couldn’t find it in myself to argue,

    • Lars

      Trans Europa Express: I am sorry you have such c&%head friends. I hope you are better than them, although, from the sound of it, it could sound like it may be your kind of people.

  4. Frankly

    And now, the end is near;
    And so I face the final curtain.
    My friend, I’ll say it clear,
    I’ll state my case, of which I’m certain.

    I’ve lived a life that’s half full.
    I’ve traveled each and ev’ry highway;
    And more, much more than this,
    I quit it my way.

    Regrets, I’ve had a few;
    But then again, too few to mention.
    I did what I had to do
    And saw it through without exemption.

    I planned each charted course;
    Each careful step along the byway,
    And more, much more than this,
    I quit it my way.

    Yes, there were times, I’m sure you knew
    When I bit off more than I could chew.
    But through it all, when there was doubt,
    I ate it up and spit it out.
    I faced it all and I stood tall;
    And quit it my way.

  5. 对PAP的看法

    Dear Roy,
    Everyone is so grown up, I think you are still lucky because your parents and family, many friends , strangers, always stay on your side to support you. since you were so young, you should take good care of your parents health, parents are the cornerstone of a family . making they happy is a child‘s homework. meanwhile every child is an apple of parents’ eyes, me and they are equally proud of you.

    The World is big, a lot of things to learn, very much hope that you can study abroad, you will know a lot of mentors and leaders guide you. help Singapore is a long term career, you have more than 30 years time, slowly to make it progress.

  6. Zane

    I not try to lecture you or tell you what to be, or convinced you to give up on what you believing here. I just want you understand there is many meaningful thing for you to do. At the end family come first. Stop fight Roy. This is for your own good. Sorry if not pleased to ear.

    • Broken promises

      Yeah but no updates regarding his promises such as detailing all the donations (incoming and outgoing) as well as solutions for all the problems he is complaining about.

  7. Abdul Rahim Bin Osman

    Your ending here is not the end, we will fight to the last battle for the return of all cpf money at 55, be it in the Heartland, handing flyers abt cpf, or election campaign platforms talking abt cpf’s return at 55, and in Parliament as a return MP, asking questions abt the status of cpf’s return.

    We will fight. That Uncle promised along time ago. A promised uncle shall delivered.

    U take care,

  8. santaclaus

    We employ too many high level
    Idiots in Sin

    Nitin Pangarkar is associate professor of strategy and policy at the National University of Singapore Business School. He is an Indian national who has been working in Singapore since 1994.

  9. Jesus Freak

    ROY, are you having AIDS? Is this a suicide note? You sound like a very lonely man Roy. Other bloggers are posting many posts and pics about their events with family and friends. Nothing like that from you. Do you have any friends at all? You know, just because you’re unemployed and going bankrupt doesn’t mean the end of the world. Many organizations need volunteers. You have great arts skills, have a passion for organizing health events – why not take up a suitable volunteer work? Even if it doesn’t pay money, at least you’re doing something useful. The judge might take into account your volunteer work and show some compassion. You know what’s your problem? You’re self-absorbed most of the time. No friends, not close to family. Do you at least have a God you can turn to? I doubt.

  10. Mike

    Roy, take a break and travel around the world. The world needs dreamers and unreasonable people.

    “I have a dream”- Dr Martin Luther King

    “The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore, all progress depends on the unreasonable man.” -George Bernard Shaw

    Politics in singapore is a dirty game esp with the PAP using character assassination tactics. Join an organisation that knows how to navigate the murky waters of Singapore politics and use your talent to come out with better policies. Changing the PAP govt will take time. Remember Rome wasn’t built in one day.

    • An ordinary Singaporean

      He has already traveled to Norway and Malaysia within a year already. How much more traveling can he do considering he has only $5000 left in his bank account.

  11. Jane

    Hey Roy!

    We have spoken in person before. Just want to send a message of support to you on your journey. The right thing is never easy to do, and you have been a courageous example to many. Don’t be disheartened by naysayers or those who lecture you and tell you that family is more important. We always knew you had the families of many Singaporeans, not just your own family, in mind. That is true unselfishness. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for having a dream, and communicating it to many people. Keep writing, keep blogging, and being true to yourself. You will always have kindred spirits, people who are grateful to you for voicing out what was on their minds, but never dared to say. Sending you blessings and love!

    Another idealist 🙂

  12. JoshuaOng

    There is no such thing as “volunteer” in a capitalist society. There is no love in a capitalist society. We all make use of each other for money. Ultimately, someone’s wealth and power depend on your “charity”. The Jesus freaks will know what I am talking about.
    To build a house/kingdom for wolves, they need to rely on Free labor(volunteer). Stupid sheep will have to believe their gospel, contribute free labor and blood money to build a glorious house of god( your leaders office and headquarter) so wolves can work, and fly, in comfort and style.

    To prevent corruption, wolves must be paid a kingly ransom. Volunteering is for freaky stupid sheep.

  13. springtime

    Roy, dont give up ! Its like climbing Mt. Everest , you have to take all kind of s*** from all over but you must be well and fully protected from the elements, before you can achieve the goal of helping every Singaporean get back our hard earned and rightful money, so systematically decimated and paltry returned to us and still expect us to be grateful for what they have done to us over the last 50 years. Dont give up , just do the things you have done well over the last two years properly and in a calm and collected manner . Play the games according to their rules and you wont run afoul of the law.

  14. Lars

    First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out—
    Because I was not a Socialist.
    Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out—
    Because I was not a Trade Unionist.
    Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out—
    Because I was not a Jew.
    Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.

  15. Ivan Ho

    Hi Roy
    The heat is on but take heart knowing that you’ve a golden heart in desiring to help your fellow citizens!

    LET NOT YOUR HEART BE TROUBLED! DO NOT FEAR MERE MEN. NOBODY CAN TAKE AWAY YOUR DREAM. REST IF YOU WANT BUT DON’T DESPAIR. TOUGH TIMES NEVER LAST BUT TOUGH PEOPLE DO! MANY ACTIVISTS AND COMPATRIOTS HAVE TAKEN THE PATHS YOU TAKE TO FIGHT VS PAP’S MIGHT BUT THEY STILL LIVE TO FIGHT ANOTHER DAY UNTIL THE WRONGS ARE RIGHTED. THEY HAVE BY THEIR LIVES, I AM SURE CONTRIBUTED TO THE SUCCESS OF SINGAPORE STORY IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER! YOU ARE NOT ALONE! THE TRUTHS FROM YOUR HEART TO THE PEOPLE OF SINGAPORE WILL PREVAIL AS NASTY DYNASTIES COME AND GO!

    Don’t give up! It comes with a price! If it is worthy, nothing should deter you IN PURSUIT OF YOUR DREAM!
    ONE DAY, IT WILL BE REALISED IF YOU DON’T THROW IT AWAY!

    Take care and God bless you!

  16. Lausai

    What dream? Wet dream ah

    Chee talks about a new vision….what new vision when he still dish out the same trash?

    Hey you goondus….it is not the Davids that will change the world…it is what he used.

    Wrong weapon….go round the wilderness again and again….like clueless protest leaders

  17. Zane

    For greater good, some “bad guy” need to do some “dirty job” for the sake of future. In your view they are devil. But in my view, they are true leader who not afrad of criticism. The problem lies on what is consider good from your view only, mr idealist. If I’m in a position to do nasty thing for good of many, i tell you I will.

  18. Alan

    Personally you should prepare for your bankruptcy! Try to practice your pathetic act starring on a bowl of rice, lying in a most awkward position in the bus or wash the toilet or something!

    Eventually you will find it useful!

    Hahaha!

  19. Zane

    Before you complaint that person’s hand shed with blood, ask yourself what can you do for better solution. Is it relevant? You can continue to become your “good guy” but let me tell you it will not bring you to anywhere. In fact if everyone like you, we will go to hell.

  20. PAPtheBest

    Evil regime is milking more money from land sale again. Ignoring the thousands of unoccupied and unsold homes in Sin and the many who couldn’t sell their pigeon holes to make ends meet,

    All they care or want about for Christmas is to pack this island with more suckers and make plenty money out of suckers!

    I think your shopping malls, mrt and hospitals are not crowded enough hor…..

    • Real Shit

      I think they are working on how not to retire slaves. The more people cannot retire or busy making money just to survive, the less, or no time, to complain or fight the greedy and self serving gov LOL

    • Lynn

      Singaporeans are so easy to please and bluff. Too crowded? Just expand the facilities and increase productivity :). Never mind that services and people will deteriorate. Going to see your doctors is in like in the past. Doctors are mercenaries today, just like lawyers. All corrupted by money. We have a soulless conveying belt healthcare system now.

  21. Zane

    Can somebody understand this truth. To become no 1 there is always high price to pay. To become relevant, labor cost must remain cheap. Why? Because Singapore is not innovation country. If you are no 50th & you are expensive, your investor will run away. Shit I hate when I got to telling this all these crap to kindergarden student

  22. Repost

    Rephrase it so kindergarten students can understand.
    To become the richest PM, there is always high price to pay. To become rich,majority laborers must be cheap to hire. Why! Because Singapore is ran by greedy pigs. If you are no 50th and the PM and elites aren’t expensive, your investors will run away. Shit I hate when I got to telling this all these crap to graduates.

  23. Zane

    Ok this is another issue. You can said what you want but I only know greed is good, is human nature, and most effective way for the system. Ask yourself, you not greed? Or you cannot get your share that’s why you said like you are saint, calling others greedy pig. Don’t take my question too personally. I not come to argue.

  24. Sane

    This is the issue. You can said what you want but i only know lust is good, is human nature, and most effective way for the system. Ask yourself, you not lust? Or you cannot get your share that’s why you said like you are saint, calling others pervert pig. Don’t take my rephrase too personally. I not come to argue also.

  25. huatah

    Student protest leaders have until now remained adamant that staying on the streets is their only option to force reform. But a prominent leader from the Hong Kong Federation of Students, the group which led the mass rallies, said Thursday that students would decide “within a week” whether to leave the two remaining camps. 

    Tai added that using methods such as refusing to pay taxes or rents for public housing, and filibustering in the city’s mini-parliament may prove to be more effective than blocking roads. “Blocking government may be even more powerful than blocking roads,” he said

    (It did cross my mind too. Better strategy)

  26. Sam

    俄羅斯總統普京在《真理報》發表講話說:一個把老百姓的居住權、健康權和受教育權拿來拉動經濟的政府,一定是個沒有良心的政府,真正執政為民的政權,一定要把這三種東西當作陽光和空氣,給予人民。

    一個國家不能變成弱肉強食的動物世界,有人占幾套房,有的人住不起房!真要那樣,執政當局沒有任何臉面賴在臺上,因為民生問題,就是政治問題,就是執政者的責任。

    一個國家的執政文明,就表現在對弱勢群體的關懷上,而不是表現在富人有多富,也不表現在經濟增長的資料。

    對照一下現在新加坡,真是可悲,我們的政府真是失敗 :

    居住權:讓大部份人民花一輩子的時間,買不起一間房子。
    健康權:放任私人醫院大賺全民「自付」,讓生病的百姓,花掉大半輩子的積蓄來治病,一個「中產家庭」可能因為一人重病,拖垮了全家的經濟!錢,全進了醫院的口袋,痛,在人民的心裡,只能無助問蒼天!!

    受教育權:大學畢業,卻失業率高漲!
    這樣的政府,真應該唾棄!

    第一世界PAP政府訪問過俄羅斯後,是否留意到俄羅斯的五個沒想到 :

    第一個沒想到是住房不要錢…

    在俄羅斯居民住房不收費,人均18平方米(約6坪,大概是套房標準)以下的部分無償轉給個人,18 平方米以上部分也只收很少的錢。

    第二個沒想到是用水沒水錶…

    用於日常生存所必需的自來水、熱水(一天24小時供應)、供暖,從來就不收費,索性連水錶都省了。

    第三個沒想到看病不花錢…

    手術免費,住院免費,治療免費,唯一不免的只有藥費。不管你是不是俄羅斯人,只要在俄羅斯境內的任何人得了病,醫院給你治。

    第四個沒想到教育還倒貼…

    學生上學一律免費,教科書均由學校無償提供。而且所有的學校一律免費供應全體學生一頓豐盛的、營養充分的早餐或午餐。如果你實在想不通問一問俄羅斯的家長,他會告訴你另外一個沒想到:學校不供餐,讓孩子們到哪吃飯呢?

    第五個沒想到失業要批准…

    為了控制失業人數的增加,俄ZF規定,大量解雇人員,必須在解除勞動協議前3個月向國家就業處提出申請,得到批准後方可解雇。怪不得有人總說俄羅斯人開郎、樂觀、堅毅,過上這樣的生活還會悶悶不樂生病嗎?

    ……

    俄羅斯前總統梅德韋傑夫說過,一個國家的青年,爭著去當公務員,這說明這個國家的腐敗已嚴重透了。

    歐美發達國家,最宏偉的建築主要是教堂,因為那裡存放著他們的信仰:博愛、自由、平等!
    日本,最奢華的建築主要是學校,因為那裡存放著他們的信仰:知識、技術、進取!
    新加坡,最宏偉的建築主要是政府大樓、銀行,因為那裡存放著他們的信仰:金錢、權力、傲慢。

  27. leehsianlang

    Who likes sickaporeans? Ill bred, ill mannered, rude and hypocrites, just like their leaders.

    Every where you go, so crowded and never fail to bum into ill bred idiots. From stinking services to the youths in slippers. .. no manners and self centered morons.

    What return our CPF? Should be stop breeding idiots first!

    • agree

      Not a good environment to raise kids. Book smart and think too highly of themselves.

      So don’t stop at 2 or have more children.

      DO US ALL A FAVOR. STOP AT ZERO! DON’T BRING AND RAISE SPOILT CHILDREN IN SIN.

      I think we have too many of these half pass six rojak people already!

  28. mschow

    Sin People just don’t know how to give way(on and off the road). Young or old, they have faces you feel like smashing lol

  29. Toto

    Roy is no posting anymore as he knows that whatever he says now will be adding to the damage he is liable for. Good bye, good riddance.

  30. CRIMOND G

    Methinks you may expose too much of your private life which may not be to your benefit. At this stage of your life, less said is to your benefit. I think too that because you are kept awake of circumstances that you are currently facing, you are resorting to writing as it gives you an outlet to express the very creative side of you. So, my Dear fellow, think carefully what you write AND PUBLISH. You can write your biography later and share your life with others. In the meantime Remember that old saying “Fools jump in where Angels fear to tread”…….so Dear friend, do NOT at this stage of your life publish anything that may be used by your enemies against you. I write because I feel and worry about you. Do NOT be hasty before revealing ALL your thoughts. In the meantime eat properly and maintain your health and you can contact me for any advice. Now’s not the time to fire all your guns. Best regards. Frank

  31. Hearts to you

    Roy needs our support and words of encouragement. I sit on the fence in that I believe that merit should be given where merit is due. And criticism where it is warranted.

    We should entitle people to their views and opinions and as what our politicians have tried to preach, agree to disagree for harmonious co-existence. It is in this light, that I feel, Roy should be celebrated for being someone who feel strongly by his convictions and who thus acted strongly in line with his ideals and beliefs. It is only chilling and disheartening, if our society is filled with people who actions and words or private thoughts and public speech deviates and diverges, for conniving and contriving reasons much less noble or even reprehensible, that those who says and do what one really thinks.

    It is also for that reason, that I ask those who would be interested enough to visit his blog, and reading his post, and think again before criticising. Think along the line of incentives and purpose. Who have the most reason to deceive you, by acting and yet thinking differently. Who around you or surrounds you, would want you to believe so that you can react accordingly to their actions.

    By now, those enlightened ones should be able to infer the hidden message and understand why it is not wise and perhaps even fallacious to believe, trust and think in uncritical and even predictable ways.

    There are many incentives and motivations behind humans’ actions that conceal the true intents and goals behind their actions especially when they have ample resources to cultivate that image.

    For Roy, the only resource he has is his blog and faith and maybe mere hope that those who are interested enough to read, would share in his sights and frankly what else further can he muster compared to the juggernauts and odds he is facing…

  32. Javert

    The problem isn’t that you didn’t want to play politics, it’s that you tried, played terribly, and failed.

    That said, I hope you can put this unfortunate episode behind you, and perhaps have a good laugh at it when you’re older. All the best in your future endeavors.

  33. Santa

    You can’t save a useless people. What more if you are also from the same breed.

    What brought down Goliath is the stone. David without the stone is nothing but a resourceful or cultivated idiot.

    • RIP

      people think nothing about the insignificant stone that lies by the side of the dirty road….their eyes are constantly riveted on the next lee…the next Mao..the next Martin…..a worthy hero…a giant…who would inspire them with great speeches….big grand ideas …who would lead them to greener pastures……or a living deliverer from the sky in white robe setting a new world order ….never…never… will it cross their puny minds that a humble stone on the ground…..holds the key of david…

  34. teoenming

    Singapore Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew and Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong Want Teo En Ming Dead

    Singapore Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew and Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong want Teo En Ming dead. Lee Kuan Yew and Lee Hsien Loong want Teo En Ming to die young.

    Teo En Ming filed an official complaint against the Singapore Government at the United Nations Human Rights Council Branch and the International Criminal Court. Read the letter here:

    Teo En Ming’s Open Letter (Plea for Medical Help/Assistance) to World Leaders. Read the letter here:

    http://lists.mcs.anl.gov/pipermail/mpich-discuss/2010-August/007811.html

    Mr. Teo En Ming (Zhang Enming)
    Singapore Citizen
    22 December 2014

  35. X

    If this the the typical sinkie crowd then of course anyone will be disgusted. No wonder so many people broke their bonds and never return. If I want to watch animals I go to a zoo

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